- Use the hands clumsily while doing or handling something.
- (of the hands) Do or handle something clumsily
Life really does lack when I feel my contribution is this: FUMBLING.
I was in a state of feeling pathetically sorry for myself tonight... struggling with a very sore tooth (dentist receipt stated.... emergency extirpation of pulp, with a booked appointment to a specialist going by a title of a Endodontist) and lack of a mother and father in my life.
Tonight was one of those nights that I just needed my Mum, but we don't see eye to eye.
From a daughter whose mother no longer chases; nothing is worth losing your daughter over.... a girl always, ALWAYS NEEDS HER MUM, and I think that no matter how old the daughter, a Mum needs to always be a Mum and that same Mum needs to always treat your daughter as your little girl and make a big deal out of her, as that is what every little girl wants, to rock in her Mummy's world!... otherwise you have nothing.
Just a word from a girl who is searching, and at this time in her life has lost her Mum!
Mum's out there I challenge you to fight for your little Girls, they love it! As hard as it may be sometimes, in the long run it could be worth this particular fight!...
But back to my fumbling, my uplifting friend and what he said to build me up:
- I see you have a website... I see you paint... you're already ahead of everyone
- you don't hide behind Facebook as a safety net and actually explore the internet
- you have your own blog
- and multiple social networks
- micro economies will emerge and people will be self sufficient
- like you and your painting and craft
- like me and my digital services
- we don't have to take over the world
- we just need enough to get by
- the kids of tomorrow will know what capitalism does society
- and so creating your own goods and services to your own extended circle is much more viable than GREED
- and if you keep this up Tania Marie you'll be one of the first few who lead the way
So after this little conversation, my Mum she still didn't call (but because we don't speak she didn't know I really needed her) but I will as always be okay because I have someone who messaged me about New Zealand postcodes and help me through a really tough night.
To be fumbling is okay as tonight has proved, it gives you strength by allowing you to be open to conversations that you may never have had.
Thank you to you!... tonight I needed you!
T. x