So finding myself feeling a little better I get in the car and head for that special girls home.
As I am driving I come up with this line to post on Facebook, my lame attempt at engaging, or cryptic, of "I don't want to force it and I certainly don't want to make it happen: I just want it to be in my life because that is where it should be"
Those words reflecting my very hopeful thoughts on finding that really good friend who becomes my nightly stability, that one where he is there at the end of every day, whether that be in person as I go to sleep or in my thoughts.
And I rock up to her house, she meets me in the lift, her parents are visiting and the she beams this smile at me and goes "I am seeing someone" and by the little we were able to share with each other tonight, she may have found that one best friend we all want.
So excited for her and no she didn't force it; it just happened.
Excited now for me too! If she can I am sure I can
Life; why do we make it so hard and why, as we get older, do we still continue to hurt each another and hide ourselves! x