I think if I sat and wrote each of these very small and seemingly insignificant things down, even I would be surprised at how many there are and how significant all listed together they are.
So much as we have heard the saying “don’t sweat the small stuff”.... can we combine the small things in our lives
together?
Well I am trying it; using all the little things to motivate this big change and give it direction!
So back to one of mine; a fear this one (and I have a number of them this is just one I am sharing at this time) is staying alone at “ground zero”. This is the first time since leaving the destructive and abusive man I was in a relationship with that I have lived or stayed on the ground floor, being able to walk out a back door straight on to the green grass and hang my washing out on a real deal clothes line.
And I am doing it; yahoo for me!! Night six tonight.
Well alone as one can be alone with three Burmese cats.
It is a really good feeling parking my car in a driveway, walking to the front door and straight inside.
I am sure it will have its confronting scary moments, I will tell you these too. But this is about learning, forgiving ourselves and realising we can do this; forgiving ourselves that is!
Note to me; maybe he hasn’t taken as much of me as I initially thought!!
Oh another thing I did and loved (doing once... not all the time; just a, I did it one more time moment) I parked my car in that same driveway and got the bucket, sponge and hose out and washed my car in the sun and fresh air
on Saturday morning!!